And yes, I know perfectly well that there are people out there who have it much, much worse. Which is why it's a selfish rant, mmmkay? Just let me wallow in self-pity for a while here.
[whiny selfish rant] So, here I am, sitting in the living room in the department, surrounded by people, but completely alone. They're all chatting merrily away, and I'm sitting here at the table, being ignored and excluded from the conversation, because they're talking about how much fun they had last night when they all went out for a drink together. (That was a monstrous sentence.)
You know, I think I was actually happier back when I never left the house. At least I could believe I just didn't have any friends because I never went outside. Now I know it's because I fucking suck.
Oh, and if you were wondering, Salem is very happy about getting rid of me. (Who wouldn't?) (Don't answer that.) He's having a lot of fun laughing and flirting with everyone who isn't me.
Actually, everyone here is having the time of their life. Except me. I think it's fairly hopeless. If I can't even find a friend here, I'll never find one anywhere. Never mind an actual boyfriend. Hah! Like anyone would ever want to be with me. *rolls eyes at self*
*sigh* I think I'll just be off and go cry for a bit now.
[/whiny selfish rant]