January 24th, 2010



Man, I was all excited about 30 Seconds To Mars coming to Belgium until I realized I would just have to go to the concert all by my lonesome again. I DON'T LIKE GOING TO CONCERTS ALONE OKAY. IT SUCKS. It sucks even more when you're a social phobic and you feel like everyone's judging you because you're just standing there by yourself being awkward. D:

I don't even know if I'm actually going to go. I want to, but I'm just so tired of having no friends to go with. I always end up having panic attacks and being awkward and feeling incredibly stupid. Yes, I also always end up having fun once the concert starts, but I'm just not sure it's worth it. I wouldn't have second thoughts about this if it was Fall Out Boy or Panic!, but I'm not as big a fangirl of 30STM, and I just really don't know. :(

Does anyone have any friends in Belgium that would want to accompany me?

PS: I'm sorry if I don't make any sense today. My blood pressure's really low at the moment and I'm incredibly dizzy and light-headed, which means I cannot brain properly. Sorry.

Crossposted from Dreamwidth. Original entry is at http://utterbasketcase.dreamwidth.org/1190.html.